Never was his plan, it continued.
Never was her sentence, it was crumbling.
Never did he need to eat here.
Never did she eat this early.
Never did he look up and notice someone.
Never had she been so aware of someone noticing her.
Never had he witnessed eyes so enticing.
Never had she been lost in such a smile.
Never had he expected being in love.
Never had she imagined someone just loving her.
Never had either been prepared.
Never had either looked back.
If I would have stopped to see
what she was thinking.
If I would have cared for
what she was seeing.
If I would have jumped
to meet her where she stood.
If I would have loved her
for what she found lacking in me.
If I would have noticed
what she noticed in me.
If I had paid attention to anything.
It would have mattered to her
and not ruined me.
Small thoughts beheld the fighting within.
Small words engaged the rambunctious kin.
Small steps rang loud and over the din.
Small phrases grew louder belted from within.
Small weapons formed to attach to their skin.
Small tribes marched together though logic so thin.
Small victories engaged, justified each win.
Small wars escalated fast to everyone’s chagrin.
Apart from you my life is
Apart from you my life was
Apart from you my life thus
Apart from you
Apart from you is life?
Apart from you was life?
Apart from you thus is life?
Apart from you
Apart from you I’m lost
And their articles laid around
And they existed in that space
And they’re here even now.
And they’ll someday leave
Cold ran through feeble forms.
They held together, though warmth less certain.
Love’s radiance, deferred ebbing life.
Winter’s breath weaving around.
Mingling aside tremoring emotion.
As Decades passed, physical strengths faded.
Held together unearthly as souls gradually unwound.
Winters breath’s last whisp released their final bound.
I felt for you – You did
I’d fight for you – You would
I’d live for you – You are
I’d raise a family for you – You could
I’d sacrifice for you – You did
I’d only love you
apart from you I’m no longer whole
shades of longing darken my soul
waves of loneliness crash, tare apart, create a gaping hole
If only to understand your reason or your goal
I’d study your desires for eternity, your life my heart to enroll