Indulge her in your wonder.
Enlighten her in your need.
Suffocate her in your desire.
Engulf her in your knead.
Drown her in your romance.
Embrace her in your plead.
But if blessed enough to marry her.
Together as one only will you two proceed.
Enough of your excuses.
Enough of your frustrations.
Enough of your questions.
Enough of your quiet stares.
Enough of your ignorance.
Enough of your caring.
Enough of all of it.
She put down her thoughts.
Cold words, wrapped heavily in emotion.
Losing him was almost Enough to stop.
But. She continued.
Continued to write about why.
Why she wasn’t Enough for him.
Not fine with you.
Not okay with you.
Not happy with you!
Not ‘so boring!’
Not ‘so emotional!’
Not your plaything!
Not a punching bag!
Not ‘obviously’ your dream,
but forever and always your #ghost!
Nearly the memory of a feeling.
Thoughtly the bliss of new.
Falsely the thought of removal.
Laughingly the release to you.
Emotionally the work of one.
Thankfully the hope of two.
Acceptingly the happiness of us.
Lovingly patience rewarded thus.
I was wrong to date you
I was wrong to believe in happiness
I was wrong to think you cared
I was wrong to guess your intentions
I was wrong to fall in your snare
I was wrong to think you chose me
I was wrong to open up to you
I was wrong to believe you listened
I was wrong to meet you
I was wrong to fall in love
I was wrong to hope you felt the same for me
She remembered and
She stood and
She wandered toward what
She desperately needed and
She ignored her fear and
She opened her heart and
She let him in and in that
She found what she was longing for
I walk life with you.
You’re my light, my sunshine.
You provide a smile for my day
and warmth for my night.
You still like me,
You even care for me.
You, who said ‘yes’.
Yes to marriage.
Yes to children.
Yes to every day of living with me.
The flawed me, who gets ornery
The unhappy me who isn’t a joy.
The chatty me, who, well, you know.
You could have thrown me away
and made another life.
You could have said ’no’ and found another.
You could have done so may things,
I love you.
I love you so much.
I am so thankful for you!
I would be honored, feel so thankful,
If you could do one thing for me.
One more request I have to ask of you.
It isn’t simple, but you’re still here.
Will you stay with me for another twenty years?
You can’t remember my love
You can’t accept my gratitude
You can’t resolve my conflict
You can’t remove my pain
You can’t return my loss
You can’t understand my mistake
You can’t fix what I said
You can’t undo my decision
You can’t forgive what I did
But you tried, and I’m asking if
You can’t love me again
Never was his plan, it continued.
Never was her sentence, it was crumbling.
Never did he need to eat here.
Never did she eat this early.
Never did he look up and notice someone.
Never had she been so aware of someone noticing her.
Never had he witnessed eyes so enticing.
Never had she been lost in such a smile.
Never had he expected being in love.
Never had she imagined someone just loving her.
Never had either been prepared.
Never had either looked back.